Today marks my first day back in the office since being on maternity leave. I am so excited to be back in this space of healing, exploration and growth. As I write this, I'm noticing the diffuse light that filters in through the curtains, and the familiar smell - some inimitable potion of lavender, mint, rosemary and old Pasadena hardwood.
As I left my son this morning, I explained to him what was happening - that I was going to work, and that I would be back in a few hours. Then I explained to him what I do for a living and why it was important that I go to work. I explained that as a therapist, I listen to people and hold space for their joy and their pain, and that over time, therapy helps people who are feeling unwell in their hearts to feel better.
I felt tremendously sad to leave him, and also tremendously proud and connected to my role as a therapist.
Beyond that, I thought about my clients, and noticed that I felt so proud of the work that they do in this office. Facing our pain can be terrifying. Choosing to heal is always brave.
I return with a profound sense of humility and some new perspective on what it means to parent, with everything that entails - the unimaginable love, the fear, the thrills, and the grief and sorrows. The intricacies of shifting boundaries and roles. The complications of finding new balance. What it means to live in a body that has experienced such an intense experience as childbirth.
My hope is that these new insights will deepen the work with all my clients, including but not limited to those with children.
So hello. Welcome back. Let's do this!